Thursday, March 22, 2012

Exam Week - End of 3rd Quarter

I cannot believe that its the end of 3rd quarter. The last year has flown by. In all the confusion, the chaos, and the lack of cohesion its actually just moved so quickly. My trip to Italy is finally coming together, and with that comes the pure fear that it will all far apart. So far, so good. My "i"s are dotted and my "t"s are crossed. Last things to do: Find a hotel room in Italy for the last night before boarding the plane, Find bus companies to take us around. So okay maybe its not ALL put together. And yes, I should be doing those "last few details" now but my brain is fried. I've been grading and working on my novel non stop. Having a person life has been refreshing and rejuvenating, but it has always come at a cost for the world of teaching. Its hard to have a personal life, hobbies, when still being a new teacher.

So why did I do it you may be thinking? I'm smart enough, knowledgeable enough, have in theory BEEN a first year teacher before. I did it because I know so much that that burn out was worth avoiding. When I finally reach that burn out, when I finally reach the end of my rope, I find that I have to do something OTHER than working on teaching. Not lesson planning, not grading, not goal setting, and NOT sitting around not working which is really just me stressing about work. No. Writing this novel provides the escape I need and it provides me little tiny escapes in the grand sceme of things. Because in the grand sceme of things, everything is about to change.

In the next sixty days, really everything will change. Personally I will be one more year older. Twenty-six has been a year of lots of change, lots of turmoil, lots of teachers, but professionally has been amazing. I am using my wishful thinking and the power of positive thinking to tell myself that twenty-seven will be a fantastic year both professionally AND personally. Wouldn't that be a change of pace ;)

Professionally the changes will be that my students and I will have left for, gone on, and returned from our tour of Italy. Having never traveled internationally before I couldn't be happier about this upcoming experience. We will have survived prom, we will have survived elections, we will be well into our end of the year portfolios and portfolio presentations. Year books will be signed and we will be preparing for our FIRST ever graduation. In a way, its amazing how much WILL change in the next sixty days. The scary part is, with all the guaranteed change, how much will still change that I have NO idea about!

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Its March

I can't believe so many months have gone by and I have neglected both of my blogs in the meantime. What has happened thus far?

Well being a new teacher means exactly that, being a new teacher. I am unsure why being a new teacher is so hard, but it is in fact one of the more awful things I have experienced. FYI, teachers who have been at the same school all their lives, STAY! Being a new teacher was no fun the first time, and the second time you see the injustice in it all. I am frustrated that things have stayed as busy as they have. The only benefit, something I have actually stated to my boss, is well thank god I'll at least know what to expect next year. I am hoping, no I am praying, that next year go more smoothly than this year.

Student Council has been a pain, but I'm actually looking forward to staying on one more year so that we can have a better year next year than we have had this year. In fact, I am even contemplating taking it on all by myself. This year myself and another woman have worked to keep it going, but in truth she has been miserable doing it from day one it seems. I however am not that miserable and I wonder how bad running things on my own REALLY would be.

Pro: I get the stipend for myself.
Con: I don't have anyone to talk to at the event.
Pro: With only one person on SC then other teachers would have to show up, its actually a duty that we have assigned to us at the beginning of the year.
Con: If someone bails on me, I would have to cover for them and I'm not good at "telling" on people when they don't do their damn jobs.

Anyway, if you have opinions, please let me know.

I already had my end of the year evaluation with my boss, in fact, it was weeks ago that I had it. I was fascinated that he just sat and listened to me, but I wonder how much he actually cared. Everyone comes across as caring at my school, and for the most part they seem to be genuine people, but then, I can't get a good read on him. His British upbringing gives him a dry sense of humor and an even drier sense of emotion. I truly struggle to see his true self, which is probably why he is the head of an entire school.

I don't have a great note to end this on. I know I will have a job, so that is a plus for the year, but in general I would just like to say that I have missed you all, I've missed my blog, and I hope that this means a turn for myself.